December 27, 2009
And the book says, “We might be through with the past, but the past ain’t through with us.
Magnolia

I’d like to call for a redo, please.

I’ve been rereading journals, rereading the shit on here and the like - and I realize that that’s just about the worst thing for me because whenever I look over my own observations, little words about life, photos I can’t help but cringe. The past and I don’t really get along well. So, I’m just gonna say lates to that and move it on.

May 19, 2009
I began to talk to myself almost immediately not being used to being the only person there.
Woke Up New by The Mountain Goats
April 27, 2009
With a skip, I scuttled into your side and smiled just a bit too bright,your voice had made me run outside to see who the hell you were.And I brushed aside the ones I knew and jumped to meet you there,in the crowd of people that mattered absolutely more than me.With a handshake we introduced ourselves, seeing past formalities,we hugged and I knew right away I would become your “her.”A meal away from a best friend was the night the sky became our joke,a slow dance and a blanket, how that moon set our chuckles free.And we cried, “Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.And when we kissed, our lips felt silly doing something that darn close,They weren’t ready to commit themselves to a thing called “us.”So we cried,“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.Like a shot our lives exploded, into a painted canvas, colors mashed,a something that Mister Whistler never would have drawn:no dimensions that made sense and a spectrum far too bright to mixa fault of mine, ‘cause my orange favorite doesn’t blend.Our philosophies crisscrossed like mad with Emerson and Keats,living through love, loving to laugh and sitting on the lawn,There we danced some more and spoke of stars and Giving Trees,and a garden full of gerbera daisies that we could (together) tend.And we cried, “Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.And when we slept together, we just laughed cause we felt awkwarddoing something that seriously meant something serious.So we cried,“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.Once a tornado spotted us on a hill (dancing again) with the clever hobos,with mittens on our hands, converses on my feet, I wore a pair of Ray Bans too.We sipped nectar from the gods who laughed at our mere complexities,how could mortals mismatch their friendship for a love such as this?And each night we bathed each other in a silence we both understood,quoting films Michael would balk at and would turn Drew Casper blue.Quickly falling right in step with your friends, and you - in turn - with mine,ending almost every gang fest with a not quite unwelcomed kiss.And we cried, “Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.And then one night I sat up realizing something wasn’t quite right,my mind, my heart, my soul didn’t love you like that,my body had felt it coming, every time we touched in that way,And it was okay cause deep inside I’d wanted to let “us” go.So I cried,“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.A constant stream of notes from both my pen and voice come out,onto paper, writing songs and plays and poems all about you.And the astronauts look down from their place on the moon saying, “Dance!Like you did! Like you do! Like you are! Like you should!”And I just cry, “Oh. I loved you. A little too much, And never enough.”I laugh, I sit, we sing, we’re just best friends.And - of course - at times I think of you when I’m dancing (with someone else)which is when I call to tell you and we smile like we did then.And we cry,“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”We dance, we drink, we hug, we are best friends.And we cry,“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”We dance, we drink, we hug, we are best friends.

With a skip, I scuttled into your side and smiled just a bit too bright,
your voice had made me run outside to see who the hell you were.
And I brushed aside the ones I knew and jumped to meet you there,
in the crowd of people that mattered absolutely more than me.

With a handshake we introduced ourselves, seeing past formalities,
we hugged and I knew right away I would become your “her.”
A meal away from a best friend was the night the sky became our joke,
a slow dance and a blanket, how that moon set our chuckles free.


And we cried, 
“Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”
We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.
And when we kissed, our lips felt silly doing something that darn close,
They weren’t ready to commit themselves to a thing called “us.”
So we cried,
“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”
We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.


Like a shot our lives exploded, into a painted canvas, colors mashed,
a something that Mister Whistler never would have drawn:
no dimensions that made sense and a spectrum far too bright to mix
a fault of mine, ‘cause my orange favorite doesn’t blend.

Our philosophies crisscrossed like mad with Emerson and Keats,
living through love, loving to laugh and sitting on the lawn,
There we danced some more and spoke of stars and Giving Trees,
and a garden full of gerbera daisies that we could (together) tend.


And we cried, 
“Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”
We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.
And when we slept together, we just laughed cause we felt awkward
doing something that seriously meant something serious.
So we cried,
“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”
We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.


Once a tornado spotted us on a hill (dancing again) with the clever hobos,
with mittens on our hands, converses on my feet, I wore a pair of Ray Bans too.
We sipped nectar from the gods who laughed at our mere complexities,
how could mortals mismatch their friendship for a love such as this?

And each night we bathed each other in a silence we both understood,
quoting films Michael would balk at and would turn Drew Casper blue.
Quickly falling right in step with your friends, and you - in turn - with mine,
ending almost every gang fest with a not quite unwelcomed kiss.


And we cried, 
“Oh. I love you. A little too much, And never enough.”
We laughed, we sat, we sang, we’re more than friends.
And then one night I sat up realizing something wasn’t quite right,
my mind, my heart, my soul didn’t love you like that,
my body had felt it coming, every time we touched in that way,
And it was okay cause deep inside I’d wanted to let “us” go.
So I cried,
“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”
We danced, we drank, we hugged, we’re just best friends.


A constant stream of notes from both my pen and voice come out,
onto paper, writing songs and plays and poems all about you.
And the astronauts look down from their place on the moon saying, “Dance!
Like you did! Like you do! Like you are! Like you should!”
And I just cry, 
“Oh. I loved you. A little too much, And never enough.”
I laugh, I sit, we sing, we’re just best friends.
And - of course - at times I think of you when I’m dancing (with someone else)
which is when I call to tell you and we smile like we did then.
And we cry,
“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”
We dance, we drink, we hug, we are best friends.

And we cry,
“Oh. I love you. A little too much. And never enough.”
We dance, we drink, we hug, we are best friends.

April 22, 2009
I can’t do this all on my own. No, I know I’m no superman.
Lazlo Bane, Scrubs Theme Song

The Iorax would be disappointed with the state of McCarthy quad.

Clever thoughts are not the same thing as imagination.
(via redpandariffic) from Riley Rose Critchlow’s about me box.
April 21, 2009
“Like a Brother, Like a Bandit (Like I have no other choice)”
Right now you don’t know it but I’m lying in your bed,awake and rusted while you rest your head,On a happy, homeworn mattress in the misty south, so wet,I’m just wondering if you miss me yet.I drank two oranginas, helped myself to your stash,Played your Prince Purple Haze vinyl but it skipped cause it was scratched,And I tried to heat some food up but I think it had gone bad,when it came cleaning out the fridge we never got the hang. And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stoploving you the way I always have,like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.Sure as I was born, I send you no scornSo please, please, please don’t give me that.And your ghost is wandering round in a stoned and stubborn haze,I dusted off the xbox and I played a couple games,and a sharp, shot your shadow…but it just is not the same.I started talking to myself, no response ever came.And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stoploving you the way I always have,like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.Sure as I was born, I send you no scornSo please, please, please…And I know I made a choice, and your heart absorbed the sting,But you also made a choice, so I’m packing up my things,I’m not saying I don’t want to, but I know it’s just the wayIt goes.So here I goes.And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stoploving you the way I always have,like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.Sure as I was born, I send you no scornSo please, please, please don’t give me that.

“Like a Brother, Like a Bandit (Like I have no other choice)”

Right now you don’t know it but I’m lying in your bed,
awake and rusted while you rest your head,
On a happy, homeworn mattress in the misty south, so wet,
I’m just wondering if you miss me yet.

I drank two oranginas, helped myself to your stash,
Played your Prince Purple Haze vinyl but it skipped cause it was scratched,
And I tried to heat some food up but I think it had gone bad,
when it came cleaning out the fridge we never got the hang. 

And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stop
loving you the way I always have,
like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.
Sure as I was born, I send you no scorn

So please, please, please don’t give me that.

And your ghost is wandering round in a stoned and stubborn haze,
I dusted off the xbox and I played a couple games,
and a sharp, shot your shadow…but it just is not the same.
I started talking to myself, no response ever came.

And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stop
loving you the way I always have,
like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.
Sure as I was born, I send you no scorn

So please, please, please…
And I know I made a choice, and your heart absorbed the sting,
But you also made a choice, so I’m packing up my things,
I’m not saying I don’t want to, but I know it’s just the way
It goes.
So here I goes.

And I don’t care if you love me but I’m never gonna stop
loving you the way I always have,
like a brother, like a bandit, like I have no other choice.
Sure as I was born, I send you no scorn

So please, please, please don’t give me that.

April 20, 2009

an Ann, an Esther and a Katie

  • Ann: I hear it's kind of a let down if you go to Disneyland after DisneyWorld
  • Esther: It's like the sacred disney place, isn't it?
  • Katie: Yeah. It's kind of like the Vatican. Only instead of religion it's animation.
April 15, 2009
April 11, 2009
ABSOLUTELY.

ABSOLUTELY.

April 4, 2009
Lucky I’m in love with my best friend, lucky to have been where I have been, lucky to be coming home again.
Lucky by Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat